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Positive Number 1
One morning it finally dawned on me.

I have something some people will never have the pleasure of having. True Love. I now give all of myself to him, no holding back, never taking him for granted anymore. I met him about a year ago, we became friends, good friends. I could tell he wanted more and I wasn't willing to give more of myself even though I knew deep down I could easily fall in love with this man. I admit to avoiding him, I admit to giving him the cold shoulder when we did talk, something I regret now. Luckily for me, this wonderful man kept coming back, sometimes we wouldn't talk for weeks, even months, but I knew he was always there. He never gave up on me, which made me realize he wasn't going anywhere. He was going to be there for me.

Whether I wanted it or not.

Positive Number 2
I wasn't expecting it to happen.

I wasn't looking for it. But I wasn't against it. I was open to it sub-consciously I suppose. Searching for that fairy tale somewhere, my internal thoughts caught up with the rest of science and dove into technology as well. I had heard so much about it happening to real life people like me, from places in the world I had never heard of, but it happened! I had talked to him on and off through way of chat rooms for about a year. In this year, I didn't get to know him really. Except the fact that he seemed like a really nice guy. He intrigued me. Maybe it was this portal into another realm we were both opening up. Making it harder to not talk. It's all you can do, just type out your inner most thoughts, and delight in the very thought of making a 'friend' online.
We started talking, and I wanted to know more about him. I got excited when I saw his name in my e-mail inbox. Even happier I was when replying to him. I was pouring myself out to this stranger, and he was responding. Giving of himself more and more each time he hit Send, as was I.In this chat room, we had 'mutual friends'. Other people that regularly chatted and with whom shared a bond with us. We knew each other's names, who had kids, each other's love lives, or lack thereof, and who was allergic to what. A kinship was born in this chat room, but all of that was irrelevant as I asked this other chatter, "What's his phone number?" I asked, he gave.

I called that night.

Negative Number 1
I wasn't expecting it to happen.

Yes, he was cheating on me and I was angry, angry with myself for trusting him so implicitly, apart from being in a state of shock and anguish there was also bewilderment. I made up with him so many times and even took the blame for his cheating. Remorse was changing into bitterness.
Right now I am in my own world, which is spinning just too fast, I feel like a zombie merely existing instead of living. The words that he threw my way have left me destroyed, how could the person I loved with all my heart and soul treat me like trash, he now says he doesn't love me and he hates being around me. I'm so unhappy that I cry myself to sleep every night hoping never to wake up to reality. This pain is destroying me, I only pray that I heal because I feel helpless and destroyed. My pastor gave me the number of a suicide prevention hotline.

I called that night.

Negative Number 2
The inevitable happened.

One morning it finally dawned on me.

Negative Number 3
Whether I wanted it or not.

I've been drifting through my own life. Not quite present to attend to anything. I treated my relationships the same way, ending them with without ever having tried. I was always curious about the pain of a break-up. I was always the sender, delivering the crushing blow. It was easier I figured, it had to be. Because though I might be sad, I had checked out of the relationship long before I actually ended it.
Now the circle has spun back on me. The woman who has waited for me to awaken finally could wait no longer.

I wasn't expecting it to happen.

Negative Number 4
One morning it finally dawned on me.

Whether I wanted it or not

Negative Number 5
I called that night.

The inevitable happened.